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A journal I keep mainly for myself, as opposed to my LiveJournal, which is for sharing and communicating with friends.
[Sunday, December 21, 2008] De-stressing from Finals
Today was a fun day~ I overslept because of pulling two all-nighters in a row so when Luke called me at 11:30, I was like "CRAP!" and showered and got dressed while he waited in the lounge.
I went to the post office and dropped off my 年賀状, here's hoping they get to Japan in time for the New Years! Then we headed downtown where parking was only $0.25 for an hour. The person before us even left 45 minutes on the meter!
We went to an Indian buffet at Natraj for lunch. Garlic nan FTW~ The mango lassi was amazing, and a lot of the food incredibly good! There were some items on the buffet not to my taste, but the dishes I liked, I REALLY liked them--they were amazing! After annihilating (or being annihilated by?) three plates we stopped by The Body Shop so I could pick up Matt's Christmas present. They had exactly what I was looking for--half price!! >:O I was so excited! Also picked up some Vitamin E makeup remover wipes, for a whopping $14. Don't know why I paid that much, when usually I get the Nutrogena ones for $6 at Target. Then we stopped by Best Buy, experienced really poor customer service that made me loudly say phrases that included "shitty" and "balls," and I exchanged Sims 2 Apartment Life for Bon Voyage! Farewell to sleep, haha.
Stopped by GR/eats so I could go to the bathroom (had a big lunch, haha) and the lady running the place was kind of disappointed when we only bought drinks and didn't order food. We were both pretty full from lunch still, plus they were charging Tokyo style prices for just-okay sounding food. In other words, pricey! But Luke left a nice big tip 'cause he felt bad~
Found the new branch of Max Karaoke and talked Luke into wailing with me for an hour. Pretty much rocked. Ended up at a Japanese market, and I found Meltykiss for only $2/box! Usually they're $4~5, so I bought $10 worth ^_^ The grocery bagger was this insanely cute boy, and I really wished I could talk to him. Against all better judgment entered clothing store ANAP just to look and walked out with a new pair of shoes for New Years, a mid-length zip-up hoodie, and a hot pink winter scarf. Also a $55 charge on my credit card... thank god for sales.
Couldn't stop thinking about box at the supermarket, so went back and asked him for his phone number. His reaction was awesome, I grinned endlessly after, and Luke says he can now never call me chicken =D
Swung by Ktown for dinner at BCD Tofu House on Wilshire and Kingsley. Soondubu ♥ I love it sooo much!
There were a lot of other tofu houses in the area that were probably better than this one, but Luke's been there before and said it was good. So I figured "reliably decent" was the best way to go 'cause I didn't want to risk accidentally picking a really crappy place at random. Turned out to be really tasty and served of banchan--I give it a 4/5! BCD Tofu House is supposed to be like the Denny's of soon dubu because it's 24-hours but I didn't have a problem with it. Service was fast and we got everything we needed no problem. Food was super tasty, so we must have caught them at a good time~ The kimchi that came as banchan wasn't my favorite kind, but my soondubu was pretty damn tasty.
This foray into the relatively unknown (for me) world of Korean dining illustrates that I really need to take a Korean class. Enough so that I can at least read it and communicate with the non-English speaking waitresses at tofu houses!!
[Monday, November 10, 2008] ♥ Seth Rogen... or I Never Thought I'd Go for a Jewfro
So... after watching Zack and Miri Make a Porno, I'm hooked. I have a huge crush on Seth Rogen. ♥
I've always enjoyed the movies he's starred in--Superbad is one of my favorite films of all time--but I never felt attracted to him, I just thought he was a funny guy whose movies I liked a lot. But then I saw Zack and Miri and... wow, just wow. Maybe it was the fact that I've had feelings for best guy friends before and transferred those feelings to the character he portrayed. Maybe it was that his cute round face reminded me of a certain... hedgehog-y guy who I just wish I could snuggle all the time. Anyway, I came out of that movie feeling majorly attracted to Seth Rogen, and now it's turning into like a craze for me.
I watched his appearance on The Tonight Show, and I have to say that the weight loss looks reallu good for him. I don't like beanpole guys, but he's looking healthier and younger... just really hot.
I've spent so much time telling other people, "No matter where you are, live your life as happily as you can." I know that I shouldn't long for the day when I can come back to Japan again, I should just work my hardest to live a fulfilling happy life and enjoy every single day. So when I go back to America, yes, I will be sad. Yes, I will miss Erek. Yes, I will have to go through a lot of hardships.
But the weather will be gorgeous. I'll be in the best shape of my life. I'll be getting a quality education again. My boobs look great. There won't be so many temptations to whip out that credit card. I'll have braces--and someday straight teeth! And I'll get to cook what I want, when I want, and for the many people that I love.
I've been feeling kind of down lately, not only because I have to leave Tokyo soon... but also because there was someone I had feelings for and it didn't really work out. Although I wasn't rejected (didn't even get that far), I don't think I was able to make the kind of friendship with him that I wanted, the kind where we would stay friends and I could be sure he wouldn't disappear from my life.
He was always busy... so busy. And if a person is too busy to spend time with you when you're in the same city, then how will he have the time for you when you're in a different state?
My friends tell me that it's his loss not mine, and I try to have the self-confidence to see it that way, but it just sucks. He's the first guy I've ever met to embody the many qualities I love in a guy--intelligent, knowledgeable (which is a completely different thing from intelligent), speaks with authority, wears glasses (Prada, omg), nerdy, plays video games, explains things clearly, has scruffy unshaven days, sense of humor, amazing eyes, casual but knows how to dress up when the occasion calls for it, nice voice, has read Dune, likes the outdoors!!, snowboards etc., tall, perfect body (broad shouldered but not bulky, lean but not thin), and absolutely gorgeous. And, unfortunately, he had zero interest in me. I wonder if things would have been different if I hadn't been so damn scared earlier in the semester to get to know him. It wasn't until my last month in Japan that I actually had the courage to do anything, way too late, of course. It can't be helped, though... there's no proof that if I had tried sooner that he would be the least bit inclined toward me anyway.
But I think this may just haunt me forever because I will probably never meet another person quite like him.
[Tuesday, July 15, 2008] The First Half of 2008 in Review... If I could do things differently this past semester, I would.
For one, I would have been more majime of a student: the last month that I have been seriously attending classes, studying in cafes, and doing my homework has felt REALLY good. I actually enjoy being a good student and wish that I had stuck to it more this semester.
I would have chosen some different classes. Poetry really was a huge waste for me as I sat around talking every day in class and didn't learn anything. The only thing I learned in that class is that I don't enjoy Japanese poetry; sorry, Japan -- but I like enough other things about the country that I don't feel too bad disliking the poetry. As for International Law, though it's easy credits that will count for my major, the class was neither informative nor fulfilling. It seems like all my friends took Corporate Governance instead and actually learned something there. :/
I would have gotten to know Aaron II sooner. I really do like him a lot and lately I regret not befriending him earlier in the school year. And now that I wish we could have remain friends after Waseda, I just don't see that happening since I haven't forged a strong enough acquaintance with Aaron II for it to matter to him whether or not we keep in touch. And I keep wondering that if I had gotten over my shyness and befriended him sooner, could it have developed into something more between the two of us? Maybe then my admiration wouldn't be all one-sided...
I would have spent more time at home with my host family. I rarely eat at home anymore and I used to spend half the week sleeping over at Erek's place, so for a while I was pretty absent from home. :(
There are, of course, things that I am really proud of.
I've gone to the gym fairly consistently. My body is in the best shape it's ever been, I walk a lot more (even in heels!) than I did in the past, and I have muscles in places I never did before -- hello, sleek biceps and kinda toned abs! <3
I joined Tokyo Hanabi, the Waseda yosakoi dance team, which is without doubt one of the coolest things I've EVER done. It looks so badass, I get to wear an awesome costume, and I lost a ton of weight while dancing. I also learned that dance somehow manages to surpass all language barriers because I made it through the circle alive!
I spent a lot of time with my best friend Erek. While I did sacrifice family time to chill with Erek, I'll always look fondly on all the good times we've had together. He has been a really important figure in my life this past year and means a lot to me. :)
I started playing 機動戦士ガンダムSEED DESTINY 連合 VS. Z.A.F.T.II which has been super fun. I hope that when I get back to America, I can find a place to play it there!
[Saturday, July 12, 2008] Aaron II
Two things of mention 1) two months ago, pursuing Glasses guy seemed absolutely impossible: we never see each other outside of class and we barely talk even in class, not to mention that I was getting zero interest vibes from his side 2) even if I did pursue him, I wasn't sure how things would work out in regards to my existing relationship: would Glasses guy even be interested in someone in an open relationship? What would happen when I went back to America? Etc., etc., etc.
So I gave up on Glasses guy in my econ class because of the two above factors (apparent lack of interest on his part/ opportunities to interact with him on my side; concerns about the logistics if I was successful in pursuing him). And I let the whole thing just slide for a month or two, and then... I don't know what happened. Maybe it was a sense of urgency brought on by the approaching end of the school year. Maybe it was the problems I've been having in my relationship with Aaron. Maybe it was just that I couldn't stand being around him anymore as just another classmate. The point is... I gave in and decided to try and see if I could get anything out of pursuing him -- even though time is against me (actually, everything seems to be going against me).
I admitted to a mutual friend that I really like Glasses guy (who will henceforth be known as Aaron II, courtesy of Erek) a lot. She encouraged me to go for it, and since then I've been trying to make a move on him. My relationship with Aaron B. has pretty much just fallen apart (but that's a story for another time). And I don't care anymore about what problems the future may hold. I figured that if I could at least tell A-II about the way that I feel, I would be satisfied. Realistically speaking, I know there is a 0% chance of him reciprocating my feelings just because we have had no interaction prior to this, which means there's no foundation for him to have feelings on. But I thought that if I could at least get to know him a little better, once I did tell him I like him then at least he would see me as an interesting, intelligent girl (maybe even find me cute?) and be willing to go on a date or something.
Once I decided to make my move, there were all sorts of problems, of course. First, I was felt really shy so when I tried to talk to him after class, I couldn't be brilliant or witty --
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