[Friday, November 21, 2008] I Still Think...
Postal Service > Death Cab. Soz, guys.
Labels: music
[ハチ子] @ 10:41 AM
[Monday, November 10, 2008] ? Seth Rogen... or I Never Thought I'd Go for a Jewfro
So... after watching Zack and Miri Make a Porno, I'm hooked. I have a huge crush on Seth Rogen. ?
I've always enjoyed the movies he's starred in--Superbad is one of my favorite films of all time--but I never felt attracted to him, I just thought he was a funny guy whose movies I liked a lot. But then I saw Zack and Miri and... wow, just wow. Maybe it was the fact that I've had feelings for best guy friends before and transferred those feelings to the character he portrayed. Maybe it was that his cute round face reminded me of a certain... hedgehog-y guy who I just wish I could snuggle all the time. Anyway, I came out of that movie feeling majorly attracted to Seth Rogen, and now it's turning into like a craze for me.
I watched his appearance on The Tonight Show, and I have to say that the weight loss looks reallu good for him. I don't like beanpole guys, but he's looking healthier and younger... just really hot.
Labels: boys, movies, Seth Rogen
[ハチ子] @ 2:22 PM
[Wednesday, October 29, 2008] Things I Need to Do...
Play Scrabble, often
Go to all my classes
Gym, gym, gym
Update my blog
Post my braces story
Clean my bedroom
Eat at BJ's at least once a month, don't eat out otherwise
Catch up on homework
Find a job
Save money
Pay off debt
Get to level 40 on Maple Story
Try not to think about Erek
Labels: Cali, Erek, fitness, in school, lists, money, RL
[ハチ子] @ 8:13 AM
[Wednesday, July 30, 2008] Slumming in Paradise?
I'm back in California and I can't sleep. I do sleep at night, but it's only for about two or three hours at a time, and when I wake up I can never go back to bed. I think I feel restless... When I was in Japan, there was never enough time to do anything. Now I have so much free time on my hands--no money to go out, so I just sit at home all day, eating.
Everyday I wish I could go to the Waseda gym, haha, because now I have all this free time to work out! Today we had a cardio-kickboxing lesson with Aaron's mom. It felt really good to be active again, and I can definitely tell that my body is a lot stronger than before I went to Japan because I had much more energy and even at the end felt like I could keep going.
My hand is getting better... I'm trying to be good about changing my bandages. All I have to do is look at the burns and the fear of it leaving scars is enough to motivate me to clean and rebandage the wounds. It really itches but I'm afraid to scratch it so I just 我慢.
Labels: Aaron, Cali, fitness, RL
[ハチ子] @ 5:48 AM
[Tuesday, July 22, 2008] why be sad?
Why be sad?
I've spent so much time telling other people, "No matter where you are, live your life as happily as you can." I know that I shouldn't long for the day when I can come back to Japan again, I should just work my hardest to live a fulfilling happy life and enjoy every single day. So when I go back to America, yes, I will be sad. Yes, I will miss Erek. Yes, I will have to go through a lot of hardships.
But the weather will be gorgeous. I'll be in the best shape of my life. I'll be getting a quality education again. My boobs look great. There won't be so many temptations to whip out that credit card. I'll have braces--and someday straight teeth! And I'll get to cook what I want, when I want, and for the many people that I love.
I've been feeling kind of down lately, not only because I have to leave Tokyo soon... but also because there was someone I had feelings for and it didn't really work out. Although I wasn't rejected (didn't even get that far), I don't think I was able to make the kind of friendship with him that I wanted, the kind where we would stay friends and I could be sure he wouldn't disappear from my life.
He was always busy... so busy. And if a person is too busy to spend time with you when you're in the same city, then how will he have the time for you when you're in a different state?
My friends tell me that it's his loss not mine, and I try to have the self-confidence to see it that way, but it just sucks. He's the first guy I've ever met to embody the many qualities I love in a guy--intelligent, knowledgeable (which is a completely different thing from intelligent), speaks with authority, wears glasses (Prada, omg), nerdy, plays video games, explains things clearly, has scruffy unshaven days, sense of humor, amazing eyes, casual but knows how to dress up when the occasion calls for it, nice voice, has read Dune, likes the outdoors!!, snowboards etc., tall, perfect body (broad shouldered but not bulky, lean but not thin), and absolutely gorgeous. And, unfortunately, he had zero interest in me. I wonder if things would have been different if I hadn't been so damn scared earlier in the semester to get to know him. It wasn't until my last month in Japan that I actually had the courage to do anything, way too late, of course. It can't be helped, though... there's no proof that if I had tried sooner that he would be the least bit inclined toward me anyway.
But I think this may just haunt me forever because I will probably never meet another person quite like him.
[ハチ子] @ 6:10 AM
